It Took Some Time But...

[xakara]

We're finally all right again!

I won't go into everything because once you climb from under a dark, bleak, black cloud there's never any reason to revisit it even to explain. Let's just say it was bad and now it's blessed. :)
We'll be caught up with everything by the end of the week and I'll finally be able to focus on just a small handful of managable things that are all about forward movement. Mmm....Progress.

I'm so far behind I don't even know where to begin to catch up with you all, but you can best believe I'm going to try it anyway. *grin*. I have a new job and a new permanent (seemingly) schedule that finally allows me to plan for blogging and writing and editing and...life. Thank gods for that because I don't know how much longer I could have held on and stayed the moderately-sane-zen-chick I know myself to be. 

I'm very grateful to finally have enough hours to pay my bills and to be in an environment where I don't have to worry about what I say concering my writing or spiritual beliefs and whathaveyou. I'll be doing retail during the holidays which is its own rung of hell, but I'm grateful all the way. I'll take retail hell over financial uncertainty any day. :)

There are so many things I could ramble on about right now, but I'm anxious to start reading up on everyone here, not to mention the fact I should pace myself so that I can ramble on tomorrow and the days to come afterwards.

I wish I had words to express my relief and my joy at being able to be here again and to finally have something to say that doesn't involve the darkness of uncertainty.

Til later.

The Beauty of Being Able To Breathe Ramble, Done.

~X

P.S. Pardon the decor, my account expired before we had the funds to renew and I still need to fix a few things.
 

Comments

[moondancerdrake.livejournal.com]

Yeah, looking at part time work myself (blog will explain more) so I understand what a relief it must be not only to have more finacial security, but a place where you can be yourself. We miss you!

[xakara.livejournal.com]

Miss you too!

And yes, relief...there's nothing like it. Financial and otherwise. :) I hope things get straight with you as well. Off to read the entry, I'll say more there.

(((Hugs)))

~X

[gloomybardgirl.livejournal.com]

Congrats on the new job.

[xakara.livejournal.com]

Thanks! I'm so grateful!

~X

[gloomybardgirl.livejournal.com]

I hope it works out for you and now I'm going to go hide or something because I can't belive I did a voice post over here. Well two but the second one actually was a lot longer. I just might have to erase it because I sound like a moron.

[xakara.livejournal.com]

You sound just fine to me, although my speakers had just a little trouble, as if you were too close to the mic. You are a braver soul than I, I don't like recording my voice because I sound like a child most of the time. I've actually had telemarketers ask me "Is an adult home that I can talk to?". Ah, well, I got out of dealing with them so I guess it's not too bad. *grin*

[gloomybardgirl.livejournal.com]

I was on the phone so I'm not exactly sure how that translates. I was in a really weird mood last night. I always end up sounding like a moron.

[sanguinepen.livejournal.com]

Hey missed you.

[xakara.livejournal.com]

Missed you too! And been thinking a lot about you. I'll catch up as best I can with everything I've missed.

Hugs,

~X

[lisaquestions.livejournal.com]

Hey!

I stumbled across your first comment on my blog the other day and realized just how long it's been since I've seen you post. Glad you're okay. :)

[xakara.livejournal.com]

Thank you! I'm gald we're okay too *grin*. Now to get to catching up. :)

~X

[sroit.livejournal.com]

Welcome back to the land of "it's gonna be alright." ;-)

[xakara.livejournal.com]

It's a beautiful land. I want to build a home here and never leave!

*grin*

(((Hugs)))

~X

[moon-chylde.livejournal.com]

Long time no see. Good to hear things are turning around.

[xakara.livejournal.com]

Too long, no see. But yeah, things are on the up and the tightness in my chest is gone finally. I'm betting my next ekg comes back all nice and normal now that I'm not stressed to high heaven.

(((Hugs)))

~X

[lisaquestions.livejournal.com]

Is that an Order of the Stick icon?

[xakara.livejournal.com]

It is indeed an Order of the Stick icon. It was from their Tshirt page and my favorite. *grin*

Oh My Dear

[(Anonymous)]

I am so glad you are out from under the darkness and the insecurity. While you were gone there sere some very dark times over here, but like you I am starting to come out from under them and find peace of mind at least. I have been thinking of you so often and hoping and praying that things would work out. So glad to have you back. You have blessed my life with your presence in it and you were sorely missed.

Vixen
http://vixensden.com

Re: Oh My Dear

[xakara.livejournal.com]

Hey Vix!

I've been thinking about you too and wondering on everything happening with you. I'm so glad you're coming out from under your own issues and moving forward. Peace of mind is something that we never value fully until it's been gone too long! May we both enjoy it for a long time to come and pass on the blessing of it to others.

(((Hugs)))

~X